Over the Dam

by Blind Pelican

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about

From Father Time / Baby New Years Records: "Written over the course of two years yet recorded in just two weeks--seven songs coming together in the first two days--OVER THE DAM marks a noted change in songwriter Douglas W. Milliken's musical approach and attack. Simultaneously catchy and ambient, humorous and dark, ripe with references to contemporary poetry and a strange matrimonial
curse. Yet beyond any creative intention or bold
execution, what's clear is that Milliken and his cohorts are having a lot of fun making songs that might be haunted ballads or maybe elaborate jokes where your emotional response is the punchline."

FT/BNY - 015
fathertimerecords.com
blindpelican.bandcamp.com

credits

released December 26, 2011

Matt Brown
Burdie Burd
Artie Fischer
Derek Kimball
Douglas W. Milliken
Jamie Saltsman
Emily Dix Thomas
Michael Dix Thomas

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Track Name: Sexualized Suicide
they feeding nights / they california / they chasing dogs / your heart-shaped sunburn // they higher learning / they poison machinery / a jewel of summer pool / your stupid tattoo // ‘leanne, leanne, leanne, don’t ever stop’ // they single-mind you / you fall into line / they language mandate and you follow / your heart-shaped sunburn // and she says, ‘will we ever see each other again?’ / and he says, ‘in another life, a million years from now / I’ll be standing in a cemetery parking lot / and you will be driving a school bus’ / and she says, ‘we’ll fall in love all over again’ / ‘no, no,’ he says, ‘I will see you / you won’t see me / you won’t see me / you won’t see me'
Track Name: Martin Sheen Wrestling with the Ghost of Martin Sheen
like a pair of wet swans, shyly we bow our necks / over the water of our past // in our house there are doors that won’t lock / in our eyes, how can we know who we are? // we were by the water and you could have been anyone / yet you’re you: who am I? // in our house there are doors that won’t lock / and we are lost: how can we know who we are? // some lives are indisputable / while other things can never be with certainty ever understood / in our home / and we are lost gazing in each other’s eyes / how can we know who we are?
Track Name: Wedding Song
on the day of your wedding to the blue-eyed woman who’s haunted your dreams / your best-friend’s oldest flame / I want you to dance // in the autumn declining sun / in the shush of the olive branch / take gently as a prayer and dance / until you feel your rope-raw muscles burn / until your knees tremble and scream / keep dancing / dance a little more / keep dancing // as her parents watch with open oh mouth ohs / as the children whimper and scream // as your polished shoes fill up with sun-sweet blood / and you pray / and your pray / keep dancing / dance a little more / keep dancing / dance a little more / keep dancing
Track Name: Be Careful
gauzy lawn / restless silver tongue / panting gyre / panting gyre // and before each dawn / I’ll rip out one tooth / rip out just one tooth // with my hammer on / I’m feeling low / if I’m not careful / I might be gone // and who is guiding me? / and who is shaping me? / and who is watching me? / what dark god pounces when I can’t see? // if I’m not careful / I might be gone / if I’m not careful / I might be gone
Track Name: Live in My House
where are your friends? / they are sleeping / but not for long / soon they’ll awake // I’ve been thinking / and I’ve been scheming / and I think you should be my wife / and live in my house / and eat my food / together we could be happy without love / without love / without love we could be happy / where are your roommates? / they are sleeping / but not for long / not forever
Track Name: Over the Dam
when our plane came down / o’er the horizon / rattling like a tin can kicked down an alley / I thought for a moment I saw our death / and I was proud / and I was ready // I let go of everything / everything // but you know, we’re a civilized people / we don’t crash planes / and as my feet touched the ground in the terminal / my heart reclaimed its anger / and my eyes reclaimed their fears // I can let go everything / I can’t let go of any one thing / I can make a fist and not let it slip / not let a single granule of sand seep through / or I can let it all go // but what would become of me if I let it all go? / would the sun light in my desert tomb / or would the wind scour through? // and what’s left? / a father with his young son on the edge of a river / tumbling over a dam / saying, ‘I’m leaving because I love you’ / and what’s left? / a common-law wife with her arms full of weeds / and dead flowers drying on the vine / sighing, ‘I’m leaving because I love you’ / and what’s left? / a mother in a boat of ash / slowly sinking into the sea / singing, ‘I’m leaving because I love you’
Track Name: Wedding Song
on the day of your wedding to the blue-eyed woman who’s haunted your dreams / your best-friend’s oldest flame / I want you to dance // in the autumn declining sun / in the shush of the olive branch / take gently as a prayer and dance / until you feel your rope-raw muscles burn / until your knees tremble and scream / keep dancing / dance a little more / keep dancing // as her parents watch with open oh mouth ohs / as the children whimper and scream // as your polished shoes fill up with sun-sweet blood / and you pray / and your pray / keep dancing / dance a little more / keep dancing / dance a little more / keep dancing
Track Name: UTI
the way you tell it, you knew I would make a move before I even knew / in winter street light, snow collecting in our eyelashes / our kiss set you on fire / and now we’re burning / yeah we’re both burning // but now these miles wear us down and drive us apart / a jet of piss on our coals / I’m building broke machines while you seek easy comfort in others’ arms / collapsing house built of cards / but I’m still burning / my heart keeps burning / I’m lost and losing like a blind pelican caught in the surf // you claim a train wreck is all your heart could ever pulse / a sash of blood on the tracks / screaming women, dead babies’re what you promised me / it’s what I wanted / so baby, who wrecked who? // cast me away / reel me back in / cast me away / try again / try try again // and maybe our compassion / always comes across as cruelty / and maybe our deep connection / was always mistaken identity / so who am I now? / yeah who are you now? / who were those people then and how did they become us now? // it’s sad to love a woman who uses your good intentions and sets your meaning aside / but I suspect this stupid torture’s as close as I’ll get to the truth behind the cloud // the way you tell it, ours was a love that’s true / but I don’t know what’s true / I want to hold on / can’t hold you and still move on the way you moved on / the way you moved on / the way you moved on / the way you’ve passed me by // I swore I’d never surrender like the ocean’s moon reflected back reflected back / a captive fool for you / you asked for nothing / for nothing we set our world on fire / so baby, who burned who?
Track Name: Mossy
crying child desire to go home / can’t go home / crying child desire to be warm / panting gyre / there’s no one to run to now / there’s nowhere to run // and maybe I was the victor of your boat of ash / and maybe I was the traitor to your arms full of weeds / everything is gone / changing / everything’s wrong // you thought that you would never heal / but you almost did / flaming arrows rend the sails / you almost survived // and now that everything’s over / now that everything is gone / it’s you I want to talk to / and I really need to talk to you / but you’re the one who’s over / you’re the one who’s gone / you are my wound and you’re the only one that can heal me / so how am I supposed to move on?